Harry Potter (harry_ep) wrote,
Harry Potter

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If one more person comes up to me today to ask about my scar, I will lose my bloody mind. No, I don't know where Voldemort is. No, I can't predict what he's going to do. No, I'm not having any "visions" or "voices" in my head, thank you very much. And yes, I am telling the truth. The only people I want to talk to right now or even see are Ron and Hermione. So everyone else...just leave me alone. I don't want to talk about Voldemort, I don't want to talk about Dumbledore. He's going to be fine. I don't want to talk about it.

My head is killing me.

I lied. What am I supposed to say? That I keep seeing flashes of things that I can't even begin to understand? That at one point he must have been close enough to touch the back of Susan Bones' head?? I don't know if what I'm seeing is part of a strange dream or if it's real. Or maybe he's making me see it, like last time...

I just don't know. And it's frustrating. I tried to tell Mcgonagall about everything that I could make sense of, but sometimes I think she looks at me like I'm some kind of nutter...like I caused all of this...like I poisoned Dumbledore...

What if I did poison Dumbledore...? If he can control my thoughts, who's to say that he can't control my actions now too? He's getting stronger. When we defeated him at Hogsmeade it couldn't have been completely. He always manages to come back...and if he's strong enough to come near Hogwarts again... even with Dumbledore gone...

The article was right. We're not safe. I just don't know what everyone expects me to do about it. All the younger years are crowding around me as if I can protect them, and I can't. It's all been luck...nothing else. One day I won't be able to fight back.
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